wow moira, that post just sent chills up and down my spine and all over my body.
personally, I have problems believing in the afterlife. I would love to believe in my heart of hearts that ghosts exist, just as I would love to believe vampires (of the Lestat/Louis variety), magic, pokemon, and miniature pet elephants exist....but I always end up talking myself out of belief logically. I'm not religious in any sense of the term; therefore, I do not believe in an afterlife. I'm always asked what I have to say about supernatural experiences, things that cannot be explained, etc, and I believe it to be merely figments of the imagination, tricks of the brain. There have been many times when I have thought to have heard something or seen something, only to turn my gaze and understand my imagination is acting up.
This all sounds so pessimistic, I know. But I don't know. I used to be fascinated by the idea, fully believing I had had personal supernatural experiences, incessantly reading up on ghost and vampire folklore, but I lost interest (and belief, I suppose) when I denounced religion.
When I was in 2nd grade - aged 8 I suppose - I was always the first to get home from school. Mom and dad both worked full-time, and my older sister was in elementary school, which didn't get out until an hour after I got home. I walked through my front door one day, dead-bolted the lock, and then went to the bathroom, taking my only dog with me. I had left the hallway light on, and while I was in the bathroom, I thought I saw shadows pacing back and forth under the door. Of course I was spooked, and when I realized my dog was with me, I got even more scared. I locked the bathroom door and listened intently.
About two weeks prior to this incident, my family had bought a 1911 Wellington upright piano and placed it in our living room. As I stood there, hardly breathing, I heard three notes played on the piano - all Cs, one low, one high, and one right in the middle. I started crying. Screaming, wailing, I was scared to death. I holed myself up in that bathroom, and when my sister came home a little while later, I wouldn't even open the door for her. I was petrified.
My neighbor/godmother convinced me it was her television and it was up too loud, but I knew it would have been impossible to hear her tv, considering our houses were 10 feet apart. I became convinced that there was a ghost in the house.
Fast-forward a few years. I'm 11 years old, just beginning to learn about make-up and the wonder that is eyeliner. My sister and I were in her room going through all of her make-up and playing with it. My parents were in the living room watching tv. My sis wanted to put eyeliner on me, but I was too scared to let her get that close to my eyes with something sharp (ha), so I refused. Being the older sister, she managed to wrestle me to the ground and pin me down, coming straight at me with the eyeliner. I began screaming, yelling for help, but my parents were used to this and told us to pipe down. I remember looking up at the air vent in the ceiling just above us while screaming, and right before my sister tried to apply the eyeliner, that air vent fell straight down, barely missing my sister's back, landing right next to us.
Air vents are kept in the ceiling with two screws on each end. This particular vent was not loose, otherwise it would have been hanging from one side or there would have been an obvious gap between the vent and ceiling. Naturally, we both stood up and ran screaming to my parents. My dad came to check things out and explained it by saying there must have been a squirrel or something messing about in the vents. I didn't believe him. I thought that ghost had come back and saved me from the perilous torture of eyeliner. That, or I had acquired psychic abilities like Matilda. (sidenote: I tried to "manipulate" other objects for weeks afterwards, but to no avail...so I settled on my ghost theory)
Fast-forward even a few more years, aged 15. My mom, sister and I had just moved to Texas, in this old little house in the middle of a cornfield. My dad was finishing up his service with the Marines back on the east coast, so it was just us girls. It was a hot summer day, and our AC wasn't working, so all of the windows in the house were open, and all the blinds and curtains pulled up and back for optimum airflow. The three of us were stretched out on my mom's bed reading, talking, and generally just messing about when we heard a strange noise. It was like a loud thump, as if someone had slammed their fist into a wall. My mom went straight for her gun (we have a .22 in the house at all times just in case...besides, we're Texans
) and called our landlord. The three of us went into the living room slowly, looking about for anything or anyone, and were shocked to find that all of our blinds had been let down, and all of our curtains drawn. Our landlord came over with a shotgun (gotta love them country boys) and checked every square inch of the house, but with no findings. He couldn't explain the blinds or curtains, except to say it could have been some kids messing about. Thing is, we lived literally in the middle of nowhere; our landlord's house was the only one around us in a 5 miles radius, and there were no signs of anyone being around.
After a few months of living there, our landlord finally told us that the original owners of the house - the family that built it - had a 12 year old daughter who was shot and killed in the bathroom when the family was robbed more than a century ago. He said he didn't want to tell us at the time because we were already pretty terrified. Shortly thereafter, we moved out.
So, those have been my experiences. They can all be explained away, for the most part - the first was my imagination, the second was loose screws, and the third...well, perhaps a strong wind.
I don't know. But the idea of there being ghosts just doesn't sit well with me. There is no solid evidence, bar others' stories, and most can be explained away by science/logic.
Now extraterrestrial intelligent life, on the other hand......THAT is something I can believe in.
Sorry if this seems incredibly cynical or pessimistic - I'm not trying to call any of y'all out as crazies or anything...I just find it hard to believe I suppose.