Suteki da Ne (Slash warning!)

[Ivy]

A/N: Well as requested I am once again working on a loverly little fic for all… er most… well some of TD to enjoy. I don’t usually write this pairing because… well I don’t really have a reason I just don’t usually write it. Y’know Yuffie is the master of this pairing in her little world and Luna writes Snape/James better than I ever could so that leaves me with Sirius/Remus which isn’t bad really I’d just like to write other things without feeling like I’m overstepping my boundaries. Anyway as I said this fic is written by request and is therefore dedicated to the very nice Rhiannon (hope I spelled that right).
Disclaimer/Warning: Okay! Characters, places, and songs are not mine. The characters and places are the property of JKR the big slytherin hater she is. Meanie. The song is from Final Fantasy X. They kept the song in Japanese so I decided to do the same as it is beautiful it it’s original language… even if it’s spelled out phonetically. I’ll post the translation after the fic. This is slash because that was requested. Yeah… I do requests now and I’m not all that picky about pairings except Hermione and Draco stuff. Well I’ve rambled enough! On with the fic! Enjoy!

[Ivy]

~Kaze ga Yose ta Kotoba ni
Oyoi da Kokoro
Kumo ga Hakobu Ashita ni
Hazu n da Koe~

I yawned lazily as I rested my head upon your shoulder. Lazy days like these have been hard to come by lately. Beyond us there is a world of pain and difficulty, a war is upon us now and you and I are caught on different sides. As the wind whispers softly through the trees I wonder what will become of us. Shaking the dreadful thought from my mind I rest my head upon your lap and stare up at the sky. The clouds that float in the endlessly blue sky have no need for war or pain; they just float through their perfect blue heaven together for all eternity. As I listen to the sound of your breathing I wish that I were a cloud. I want to fly, unaided by a broom, through that crystal blue sky with you forever.

Somewhere in the far off distance a voice calls my name and I block it out. How much longer will you and I be able to remain like this? I can feel our time together is coming to an end. The final confrontation is near and when it is over everything will change.

[Ivy]

~Tsuki ga Yureru Kagami ni
Furue ta Kokoro
Hoshi ga Nagare Kobore ta
Yawarakai Namida~

Before us the sky turns from clear blue morning, to dusty rose colored sunset, and finally to the dark blue of night. The sky is lit by millions of twinkling stars and I thank god that we are far from that blasted astronomy class. I stand up and hug myself tightly in an attempt to fight off the chill that has come over me. I don't expect you to follow me but I know that you will, in that silent thoughtful way you seemed to have developed over the years. You've grown so much since our first meeting. You've become the hero everyone knew you would be and I... well let's not talk about what I have become. I'm still as spoiled and selfish as ever, I just tend to think a bit more now.

You hold me close from behind and I can't help but smile. I don't know how this happened. I can't see what it is you like about me when I can hardly stand myself sometimes. The others wouldn't understand. Not that horrible little mudblood that follows you around and certainly not Weasley. Crabbe and Goyle's reactions don't bother me as much as you would think. They're too simple minded to comprehend anything unless I explain it to them several times.

I gaze at our reflection in the mirror-like lake and smile. We look good together. My natural Slytherin sexy-ness makes up for your messy hair and general awkward appearance. How can you really be a hero looking like that?

I know in my heart this won't work. We're too different and we believe in different things. I'm not a romantic like many of the other slytherins. I can't say that you're all I believe in because I believe in honesty and that would be a lie. When I go to bed at night I still think that I am better than Granger no matter how high her test scores are and if anyone dares say I'm not better than Weasley I'll Avada Kadavra them in an instant. It's funny that I can say these things about mudbloods and then proclaim my love for you in the same sentence.

For a minute I forget myself, my thoughts go from how good we look together to my beliefs and then back to our impending end. Before I can stop myself the tears begin to fall, shining in the moonlight like the stars in the night sky. I weep out of sorrow and anger, because I love you and I want to keep you to myself. I love you and I'm selfish, in my opinion there is nothing wrong with that.

[Ivy]

~Suteki da ne
Futari te wo tori Aruke ta nara
Iki tai yo
KIMI no machi Ie Ude no naka~


The day has ended and the night chill is chasing us inside. Being with you like this is beautiful in it's own way. I can be so sappy around you, I hate it. Looking away in angry embarassment I reach a hand out shyly seeking the warmth of your hand. I'm only mildly surprised when you take my hand in your own and smile at me. You're too nice for your own good what would you tell Granger if she were to see you. What excuse could we possibly have for Professor Snape? He really is a wonderful man and a great teacher. I don't see why you give him so much trouble.

"Let's leave, Harry." I whisper urgently. It would be so easy the door is right there who would know if you and I just left? Who would care? Well okay, maybe that's wishful thinking right now. Obviously many people would know and many people would care, but it's too late to make sense now. You just look at me and I frown. Where would we go? Not to my place. Mother would throw a fit if I brought home the boy who put her husband in jail.

I've decided that I want to go with you. I want to see your world. The one without magic, the one you return to every summer. What is life like out there where you can't use magic? I know you are a prisoner within your home but so am I. Our locks and bars are just different.

[Ivy]

~Sono mune
Karada azuke
Yoi ni magire
Yumemiru~

I rest my head upon your chest as we sit in your common room. I honestly didn't think dressing up in Gryffindor robes and letting you speak the password would work as well as it did. It would've been easier if you had just brought that invisibility cloak of your's but I guess you don't think like me. I still haven't decided if that's a good thing or a bad thing. It's probably a little of both.

The rythmic beating of your heart is hypnotic. I'm tired and I'm confused. I only want to be with you. Like I said before I don't know what you see in me but I'm not going to question it. I want to be with you but there are reasons we can't be together and reasons I should hate you. I just can't understand why I don't. I couldn't even tell you what it is I believe in anymore. Being with you makes me question all I have been taught and that causes nothing but painful headaches and sleepless nights. With a tired yawn I fall asleep in your arms. If this is a dream may I never awake.

[Ivy]

~Kaze wa Tomani Kotoba wa
Yasashii Maboroshi
Kumo wa Yabure Ashita wa
Tooku no Koe~

I awoke with a start. Someone is calling my name from afar. It's the same voice as yesterday and yet it seems to be getting closer. I can almost recognize it. Suddenly, I'm very affraid. Something isn't right. I climb off the couch, wriggling out from between your arms, and walk to the window. The breeze is blowing gently through the open window and the sky is crystal clear blue again. The clouds float serenely by and I can't figure out what it is that has made me so frightened.

I lay back down beside you and sigh. I didn't realize I had slept for so long. I could've sworn I had just closed my eyes. For it being so late in the afternoon the common room seems strangely empty. No one is around. I would've expected to see Granger or Weasley standing over us, frowns plastered upon their faces. I really wanted to smile up at them and say something smart. I rest my head against you once again and manage a small smile as you look down upon me. For a brief moment I could hear the voice calling my name again. Their was something urgent in the voice. He was pleading with me. For what? I have no idea.

[Ivy]

~Tsuki ga Nijimu Kagami wo
Nagare ta Kokoro
Hoshi ga Yurete Kobore ta
Kaku se nai Namida~

Again we are standing before the crystal clear lake as you hold me from behind and I stare at our reflection in the water. The waters seem muddled tonight. The moon is not quite as clear as it had been and I have lost sight of your face in the reflection. I am slowly begining to lose sight of the rest of you. I watch in silence as you slowly disappear from our reflection. You're still there aren't you. I can feel the warmth of your body and your breath upon neck, can't I? For a moment nothing makes sense.

I turn to face you and I can still see you. You smile at me and my heart melts, but I can't feel you anymore. I reach out a hand for you and pull it back suddenly in confusion as I feel a distant but distinct pain. Again I hear the voice, he's frantic with worry. About what? Professor Snape is calling me, but why? I'm right outside the school aren't I? I open my mouth to let him know that I am fine but nothing comes out. I turn back around to face you and my heart shatters. I fall to my knees crying. My tears once again becoming crystal stars in the moonlight as the fall from my face to the lake below me.

[Ivy]

~Suteki da ne
Futari te wo tori Aruke ta nara
Iki tai yo
KIMI no machi Ie Ude no naka~

I want to go with you. I want to see your world. I want to live with you in that world that lacks magic. I take your hand in mine and I stop you before you can lead me back up into the Gryffindor common rooms, back to the couch where I will fall asleep believing I can hear your heart beat. With tears in my eyes I step up to you and press my lips against your's in what should have been a soft kiss. I felt nothing.

Professor Snape's voice has become louder and the pain in my hand has intensified. I have begun to ache all over. Leading you back out to the tree I sit beside you and decide to wait for morning. I'd like nothing more than to stay like this forever. Floating peacefully through all of our days like the clouds float peacefully through the vast blue ocean of the skies, but I can't. I want to hear your voice and in this place you have not spoken to me once.

[Ivy]

~Sono Kao
Sotto furete
Asa ni tokeru
Yumemiru~

The tears once again fill my eyes as the sun begins to rise over the lake, looking exactly like the sunset in reverse. You touch my face gently and smile at me. "I love you Harry..." I whisper and you smile back at me. I hear the voice again and I sigh. I kiss you once more as I let go of your hand. That face, your precious smile, that look of love in your eyes. I will never forget it. I bite back a cry as I step away from you, whispering words of love over and over to you as the sunlight falls upon your face. I watch in pain and agony as you dissolve into nothingness before my very eyes, leaving me with nothing but a broken heart as I open my eyes and awake.

I'm in a hospital bed surrounded by other slytherins and Professor Snape. He tells me there had been an accident in Potions class, Longbottom's potion exploded. Luckily only Harry and I were injured. I catch his eye from across the room and I glare at him. He glares back at me, the worry I had seen upon his face disappearing as he mutters something under his breath. Even if it was just a dream I will always remember that for a moment I had been loved by The Boy Who Lived.

~End

[Ivy]

Song Translation

Suteki da Ne (Isn't it beautiful)

The wind, like a heart that swam in the accumulated words
The clouds, a voice that was shot into the holding future

The moon, a shaking heart in an unsteady mirror
The stars, gentle tears in an overflowing stream

Isn't it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands
I do so want to go,
To your city, your house, into your arms.

That heart,
held within your body
In those confusing nights
I dream

The wind, its halting words are a gentle illusion
The clouds, the broken future like a distant voice

The moon, a heart flowing in the clouded mirror
The stars, broken and swaying, like tears unable to be hidden.

Isn't it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands
I do so want to go,
To your city, your house, into your arms.

That face,
A soft touch,
Dissolving into morning,
I dream.

[Tange-Rhi-ne, Tange-Rhi-ne]

Oooooooh I loved it! Thank you so much for writing this ;D And yes you spelled it right