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Post by Potter723 on Mar 16, 2003 8:10:51 GMT -5
lumie, you said:They're wrong, though! I get overwhelmed, and that's when I start having those suicidal feelings churning up. They just don't understand how I feel inside, and even though I try, they simply won't listen. My IRL friends do the same thing. They come to me with all of their problems, and I always listen. Then, when I go to them, they're simply too busy, or at a game, or doing homework, or making up some other excuse so they don't have to listen to me rant about MY problems. I feel like it's all just an act, and that no one has true feelings for what happens to me. Like, say that I run away from home. I'm afraid that no one will bother sending out search parties, or that no one will notice I'm not there... I just feel so alone. i know how you feel, its like,you have to do this, and that and help people, and thats hard without school work...i can only just cope.. if they(yuor friends) dont listen to you, then dont waste your time trying to talk to them, they arent worth it if they wont help you. even if yuo dont know it, there it always sombody who oyu know/ who knows you, who cares about you, you just have think that if you die, then youd be breaking sombodys heart.
about the school work, if your getting to much to cope with, you should really tell the teachers, they should understand if you cant handle it with your medicence(sp?) kicking in making you tired.... hope you sort all that stuff out...
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Post by lumennremirath on Mar 16, 2003 14:21:48 GMT -5
Thanks, Vincenzo. Luckily, there was this little conference-type thing where my mom, the guidance counselor, my English teacher, my study hall supervisor and I talked about all that stuff. I'm just glad it's been somewhat sorted out.
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Post by lumennremirath on May 17, 2003 22:49:54 GMT -5
Hey, guess what? It's that time again....SUICIDE!!! I know you all just think it's so distasteful, so I thought I'd broadcast it.
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Post by Will on May 17, 2003 23:17:02 GMT -5
-rereads the post-
Suicide...? Lumie, dear, I think you need to sit down and relax. What do you need to talk about? I'm here to listen...
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Post by lumennremirath on May 17, 2003 23:20:59 GMT -5
Willow, who the hell am I? I don't know me anymore. I thought I did, but things are just running around like crazy in this screwed-up mind of mine. I just feel....unwanted. I always have, I've just been lying about feeling fine.
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Post by Will on May 17, 2003 23:41:22 GMT -5
Ha! Sometimes I feel the same way. It's like everyone around me have all these different opinions about me that it starts to blur the view of what I think I am. Unwanted? No, it's not true. I certainly want you around, but I know what you mean. At least, for the most part. Kind of like my parents. They seem so much more interested in my sisters and I just can't talk about my problems with the friends at school. Then there are you guys. The people on this wonderful board. I don't mind talking to you and all my other friends here. Tell me. What makes you feel unwanted?
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Post by lumennremirath on May 18, 2003 0:41:55 GMT -5
i don't know. i just feel it. i am such a moron, and it feels like everyone's trying not to laugh at me. they know that i'm just a weirdo, but still.
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Post by Will on May 18, 2003 23:42:25 GMT -5
There is nothing wrong with being strange or different. I sure am. If they make you feel bad and unwanted in anyway, you know you can take your anger out on me. Yell at me as much as you want. I won’t mind at all. If it makes you feel better…
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Post by lumennremirath on Jul 13, 2003 3:03:53 GMT -5
why does it seem like people avoid me. its probably nothing, but still.
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Post by Evelyn on Jul 26, 2003 17:05:57 GMT -5
Why do I does it seem that I can't open up to people? I mean truly open up so that they see who I really am, not the mask I wear.
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Post by En on Jul 26, 2003 18:09:08 GMT -5
What is it that you want to share with people that you're not sharing? I mean -- what exactly made you feel this way, most recently?
I have a lot of trouble opening up to people too, at least, being thoroughly open. I think in my case, it's a fear of rejection.
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Dora the Explorer
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Post by Dora the Explorer on Aug 22, 2003 20:20:11 GMT -5
HELP!
All my life, I have been the Good Girl. I do everything I am supposed to do. Homework, classwork, practising my flute, ask me to do something, I've already done it. But I am SICK AND TIRED of getting NO ATTENTION. At school, most people hardly know my name. At home, it's all about my brother with ADHD. And at church, I just feel like part of the wallpaper for all anyone cares about me. Generally, I am tired of being taken for granted. My friends ask me to help them with there homework or be a shoulder to cry on, I'm fine with that. but when I need some help, they are just like "Oh...sorry. Anyways, back to MEMEMEMEME...." Well, you get the picture. And I think it's a matter of wanting to be NOTICED. I want to be recognized for something, but frankly, it's not gonna happen. I've sort of given up on that daydream. But can I just get some feedback? Do a lot of people want to be noticed? Or is it just me?
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Post by Calantha on Aug 22, 2003 21:08:00 GMT -5
I think a lot of people want to be noticed and that it's completely understandable for a person to want credit for things. I know how feeling like you're being overshawdowed can go and I don't have any advice really, because for each person I think it's different, but I don't know...find a nitch. Do something that you really really love and you'll be noticed...for a really long time I did everything my sister did because it was like a game to me...to be noticed...to overshine her because I felt like I was always in the shadows of her. You could talk to your friends...tell them that you're glad to be there for them, but you need some of their time in return. You know, I have a friend who acts bad on purpose, the whole alcohol, drugs, parties, bad grades thing...and sometimes I wonder if it's partly for attention cause her family doesn't seem to pay much attention to her. Sometimes people act out in odd ways for attention. So...I'm not telling you to go like...have some drug induced party-all-night thing to get noticed... But ya know, instead of being the good girl...just try being you...and if you don't happen to fulfill all the good girl quotas for the day, don't worry about it. It might not make you noticed, but you'll at least be happy, right? And hey, don't give up a dream to be recognized. Who knows, it just might be around the corner.
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Post by Dora the Explorer on Aug 24, 2003 16:22:37 GMT -5
Thank you sooooooooo much! ;D That helped!
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Post by Sondra Roswin on Sept 1, 2003 3:10:54 GMT -5
Ok, this is a first for some time that i have been able to express to others what has happened but i'm hoping that someone can help.
About two weeks ago i had cut my wrists again. not letting anyone know about it but i now its getting worse and it seems like the only solution with everything going on. and just the other day I re-opened my wounds. I can't see any other way out and i do know it is getting out of hand and i can't turn to my friends here cause they would think its some type of attension seeking.
Please can anyone help me?
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